Lonely

It's August 3, 2026.  It is cloudy.  My sons are away and I am a finding that my purpose in life is on vacation.  I am missing getting annihilated in chess by my youngest boy and watching anime with my older boy. 

Being home alone again brings me through a lake of experiences since the December 19, 2019 cancer diagnosis.  What shows up in my awareness is feelings.  The medical care has been wonderful and I am blessed and spoiled to have a wonderful team of medical staff in various clinics.  They are the heroes.  I am, however, feeling alone.  I hope that my boys are having a good trip and I am looking forward to tonights online chess session with the younger one and a brief message with photos from the older one.  I find that I can wait many hours for them to send me something.